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2008-02-18T21:33:00.000+08:00

leaving tml morning.3 weeks.ha.see ya ppl in 3 weeks.will be back on 11 march.ciao

2008-02-16T23:10:00.002+08:00

flying off on tues morning.that is about 2 days and 7 hours more.i know i wun be missed.but i'll be missing ppl.19 feb to 11 march. 3 full wks.sianz.but no choice.sighhhhhhhhhhhh

2008-02-12T22:30:00.000+08:00

its after chinese new year.and i'm real busy.india trip meeting.coaching.go out with friends.my week is totalyl packed now.i need a breather.seriously.leaving next tues.3 weeks.not as if anyone will care.but i'll jsut say it. anyway i'm blogging to as to post a video for a lazy psycho to watch.so i'll just go ahead with that.tc everyone

枫

彩虹天堂

2008-02-01T22:27:00.000+08:00

exams are over.ole.free from exams torture.i shall not say anything about it.only hope i do well and pass. ha.after math met patrick.he came over to talk to me and yewtai.was a short talk
after that.went over to cine with the guys to eat sushi.we eat till we were bloated la.nothing else could in anymore.while we ate we played psp.time pass pretty quickly.honest.the day was fun.overall.ha

tml going dinner with sotong and eric.what should i do before that i wonder.hmmmm.dunno.shall decide tml.sun should be joining 4G guys for soccer.just hope nothing comes up this time.mon got ntp.shall get some ppl to go.bar is coming soon.however soon is after cny.so long la.sianz.hope it arrives before i leave for india.oh and mon got india trip meeting.need pay 390.nd give photocopy ver of passport.so much things to do.so little time for it.sianz.three weeks trip.no aircon.nd do laundry.like ns sia.except no physical training.ha.hope it'll be enjoyable.

must put the rest of my hols to good use.bar selling time.wahaha.nd find ppl go out.nd to have fun.ha.bad thing is i wun be around when results release.will be scary being the last to know.arghhh.what should i do sia.sigh......

holidays here i come.make this a good holiday this time round.

2008-01-25T18:51:00.000+08:00

你果然是无事不登三宝殿的人。你这种朋友我不希罕这么多。

2008-01-06T21:29:00.001+08:00

new year.and i got drunk on new year day.reason: gulping alcohol down.and then puked

31st went to xavier's gf's mum's condo.went there first thing was drink.mixed.play ps3.psp.then some of them play monopoly.lol.after that went dinner.dinner was good.salad prawn.butter crab.stir fried beef.sambal kang kong.ha.after that went walk.end up play bball.went back.paly monopoly.lol.was fun though.played till 1 min before midnight.then faster sms ppl.end up.error error error.retried at least 15 times la.ha.after that still paly.drink a lot.one flame shot.a lot of others also.at round 3.some of us went down to drink and chat.then was when i got drunk.dunnno how i got back upstairs.dunno what happened.dunno whether got anyhow say things or not.scary lor.but still was rather fun.ha

skip all the way to fri.had soccer with the 4G guys.winstons back.so the session was for him.soccer was fun.got headshot once.block a lot.now body still aching.after that winston left.sad.rest of us went eat at marina carl's junior.talk and crap there till 11 plus.then went train back.crapping session was fun.just like before ha.talking.scouting.jokes.everything came out.ha.

sat which was ytd.had class outing.went plaza singapura.ate pastamania.everything was only ok.wasn't surprised.after eating.went take photo.after that split to clique liao.the group of us went arcade.i play till broke la.zzz.after that went home early.very sian.zz.this class forever not united one la.kuku.

well today.woke up early.went eat dim sum.was good.lol.worth waking up early for it.after that went orchard.get refund for jeans.then to queensway buy shoes.went to all the shops.found a lot i wan.but because mum limiting me then nvr buy.arghhhhhhhhhhhhh.totally sian.in the end bought a pair.dun really like.but no choice.sighh.but can't blame my parents la.not they wan also.nvm.got shoe better than no shoe.

H2 drama last episode just finish downloading.gonna go watch liao.cya.

heres a class photo for u guys before i go off

2007-12-24T14:34:00.000+08:00

christmas is here again. well pretty bored like the previous years still.everyone seems to be overseas those in town are all busy. bored. had christmas dinner just now. my mum roasted turkey for the first time and it turned out pretty good.ha. dunno what i'll be doing tml. dad said maybe we'll go to malaysia but i dun feel like going at all.zzz.hope i can get someone out tml. if not it'll be wed.going back school to do report.what a spoiler.sigh.

was in a bad mood this morning cause there was some guys who were out to get me. because i was pissed already then someone came and said something then cause me to blow off.i kinda flared at her.sry for taking it out on u even though it doesn't concern u.everything's fine now.ha. guess that'll be all for today.

before i sign off.i'll wish everyone merry christmas.hope all ur wishes come true and enjoy this festive season.C=

2007-12-19T14:04:00.000+08:00

1 month and 4 days since i last blogged.

nothing much to blogged bout lately.hmmm.cept that i got a psp slim and ipod touch.lol.prob going india during feb for community service project. last sat had a 4G gathering.not bad.not good either.rather bored i have to say.mood sux.

31st countdown then ton at boon lay there.drink drink drink.lol.anyone interested come tell me.haha

out

2007-11-15T21:28:00.000+08:00

Our Greatest Fear —Marianne Williamson

it is our light not our darkness that most frightens us

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.

There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other

people won't feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of
God that is within us.

It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people
permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.

2007-11-11T21:41:00.000+08:00

this post is dedicated to a certain psycho on this earth who will be leaving for yunnan this tues.

we shall start off with a list of things i've done for her before.
-blog
-find songs
-edit blog
-listen to whinings
-lend her notes
-help her blog
-find more songs=P

a missing psycho= less whining, less tasks.lol.

not that i'm whining about being overwork.workload is decent.ha.i'll be very free.will sian also cause nothing to occupy my time =(

bon voyage. must come back in one piece. and i want souveniors.haha=P

2007-11-11T19:54:00.000+08:00

k.i got tons of belated post.hmmm.shall post everything at one go.shall begin from last week.

Last week was the week after e-learning.mon has nothing special except knowing that we got a bsbm quiz on tues.

Tues had bsbm quiz.paper was suppose to begin at 1.but drag drag drag till 2.which was stupid.thanx to a certain lecturer.after quiz chiong to jp sakae with jason zhuen xavier yewtai and jonathan.we ate a hell lot.and no exaggeration there.lol

amount ordered from pc(not including the plates we took from the conveyer belt)

custom made desert

another view of custom made desert.

maths getting more and more bored each week.boredom made me an artist.haha.the following two pics were drawings drew during maths this week.ha

not bad at all eh.ha.pretty good i have to say.lol.rest of the week aren't worth mentioning so i'll end here.dedicated post coming in a moment.ha

2007-10-31T12:37:00.000+08:00

ytd's cip at jurong bird park was real tiring.we were like banglah's.clearing the dried leaves and all.like gardeners trimming the leaves.real sian la.mosquitoes kept feeding on us. however we manage to get into the restricted areas.which was fun to explore.ha free ride on the train inside.discount on food.is shiok lor.ha

after that the group of us went eat dinner at sakae.after taht bought drinks and snacks and went to chat at a playground.lol.was fun.crap.school lifes.exploits all came out.was hilarious and fun.lol.after that went home.was real tired la.then had to slp in living room.but somehow manage to fall asleep real quickly.maybe cause i'm reat tired physically and mentally.today gonna stay home rest instead of going ice skate.still feeling tired now.plus mentally stress.sianz.it sucks.evening sotong gonna come my house and pass me phone cover.ha.nan de lor.lol.ha.thats bout it for today i guess.

我觉得我真的该放弃

2007-10-25T20:56:00.000+08:00

its thurs.had apchem test ytd.was rather easy.ha.got back today.got 41/50.ha.it gave me a great morale boost.this sem i shall do well.ha.after school went play bball.now feeling tired liao.ha.but it was fun.lol.

tml end at 12.going out.watching lust caution.lunch at pastamania.then pei a sotong go shop at far east.ha.outta keep me entertain.lol.

age of armor is in open beta.time to play ha.any interested ppl come join me.ha.next week e-learning.which means study home.but liekly i'll end up playing ha.tues doing cip at bird park.bird shit.sianz.wed going ice skate.rest of the week will be dedicated to studying and playing ha.likely one day will have to make free to go queue donut factory.anyone interested just sms me.ha.

wander3r signing off

2007-10-22T21:38:00.000+08:00

hmmmm.start of new week.bored as usual.literally slept through bsbm and apchem.lacking slp lately.not gonna name who to thank that for.today finish at 4.then went fc6 wait for a sotong. she is real slow la.ha.while waiting went buy donut to eat.hmmm.think i shall frequent fc6 more often to eat donut le ha.after that the sotong finish lesson and arrive.first thing she did is go look for food.wahaha.lol.after tat went back.then on the train back she needed food again.yew tai can be witness.lol.ha.

got home was sianed.then the sotong help me find article for crs.very kind.ha.thanx.now finish the writeup liao.took me half an hour.i worry for nothing la.ha.lol.

tml 8 to 4.sian one.feel like slping la.ha.next week e-learning liao. very busy week.got cip and birdpark.ice skate.going pub.still got stuffs coming ha.this fri going watch lust caution.ha.relaxing time lol.this wed got apchem quiz.though not that hard is sian.the quiz is at 5.30.then my gems ends at 3. 2.5hr break.zz.then everything finish is at 6.30 la.boring liao lor.sigh.but nvm shall endure haha.

oh i forgot mention last weekend.sat went lj's house before that went buy tidbits and alcohol. vodka is ex.750ml for $86.i shall frequent the levy free shop more often in future.ha.thats all i think.ha.

wander3r signing off

2007-10-18T21:23:00.000+08:00

nothing special happen today.bored as usual.got worse when i had to go home alone.zzz.nothing else bout school to mention

hmmm.now blog bout frens instead.hmmm.i've got a fren.she broke up with her bf.then the bf wan patch.she then patch with him.now the guy patch with her liao still heck care heck care.and claims he is trying.honestly even a retard can tell he isn't trying la.the girl is holding on cause she bu ren xin shang hai the guy.but ah because of that she cheng shou hen tuo.unfair for her la.the guy is retarded.deserve to be whacked seriously.another girl is getting real stress from her parents.cause she heading for poly.and her parents are rather against it.then nag nag nag at her.ke lian lor.must jia you to endure u two.everything will be fine soon de.

as for me.single still am.but my compass is starting to point somewhere le.beginning to feel things.first time i've feel devastated when a person say i can't be trusted.after hearing that.the rest of my day really was sian lor.sigh.

life is a dread when things refuses to go the way u wan.it gets worse when u can't do the things u wan.zzz

wander3r signing out

2007-10-17T20:00:00.000+08:00

hmmm.i've got ppl saying i too long nvr blog le.so shall blog.ha.hmmm.recently nothing much though.lol.think i'll blog from ytd.

school was as usual bored.after school went play pool then meet up with sheery eat dinner.end up is i eat only.then hor got sotong picking food from my plate la.lol.=P.after that went queenstown.get avocado drink.its like biscuit la.and cause my drink was mixed with chocolate.it became like oreo but in green color.lol.then she buy for her bf.then walk with her to deliver drink.they talk talk.then i took my calls.after that walk to bus stop take 61. oh here is a tip for everyone.when it rains dun take 61 back.from queenstown to eunos took me near 2 hours la.and ah.got some girl hor.halfway through the bus ride had to go toilet.then hor had to drop with her to go toilet.first time happen to me de lor.and hor is rainy day la.imagine walking in the rain to find toilet.then after that brave rain to go bus stop again.pro rite.ha.oh almost forgot.i took a picture of a slping sotong ytd.anyone keen in seeing can ask me send u on msn.lol.=P

today was quite ok.anatomy physiology prac was drawing and theory.lecture finished so fast la.gems today 15mins only.bored.lol.after that went cineleisure watch resident evil:extinction.lets see veron xavier jason zhuen were late.lol.hiroshi and lydia waited outside for them to pass them ticket.noble sia.or was it a ploy to be alone.lol.extinction was nice.ending was cool lol.got someone also freak out la.and that person was sitting beside me.lol.after everything went home.bored lol.

my parents are back from hong kong.bought food and more food and a bag for me.lol.they are surprisingly energise despite the flight.lol.tml got school.till 4.zzz.slowly getting used to things le though.ha.

now let's look at things out of daily life.lol.hmmm.good news to me.psycho gonna be my junior next year.haha.though she taking DBS rather than DBT.gonna lend her notes to prepare for next year.but ah the notes i pass to u might only come of use in sem 2 hor.dun come say i bluff u.ha.

think i'll end here.nothing much left.ha.oh btw.i'm currently enjoying singlehood again.ha.this is to prevent anyone from saying i forgot tell them.lol.ciao.ha.have a nice day to all.lol

revival

2007-09-15T20:10:00.000+08:00

seems its bout time i bring this blog back to life.but somehow i feel whether its back or not doesn't make much of a difference since there is no longer anyone visiting.

heck that i'll jsut blog.

life is ok for me now.but something keeps getting into my mind.now its like everytime i attempt to know someone better.that person will think i've got a motive or something.its like wth lor.lifes been pretty unfair to me.my mind is a little stone in a way.so many things to think bout.so many things to figure out.wanna sort things out.hope things will go the way i wan..............

2007-08-23T21:49:00.000+08:00

finally got time to blog.exams over.free liao.ha.i'm gonna be free for a month.u guys wan go out ask me along.i'll be real free.to all.i can't see my tagboard.so can't reply.any replies there that has my name is fake.so until further notice.i prob can't reply.ps.ciao.have fun.

2007-07-02T19:23:00.000+08:00

020707.love this day.C=

2007-05-09T22:47:00.000+08:00

its been over a month since i last blogged.school has started.4 week has past.my class is fun.everyone is easy to get along with.everyone is great in a way.the guys are a crappy bunch.girls are easy to get along too. united?.pretty much yes.ha.

my new cca is dragonboat.training is tough.fun in a way.pretty much getting used to muscle aches already ha.got a great group.we push each other to do our best.the seniors push us.motivate us.tech all of the freshmen wanna be like the seniors thats for sure. three trainings a week if we're selected for sea training.two if we aren't.but two trainings is enough to leave us unable to lift our arms for days.lol.but everything is worthwhile.dragonboat ippt is likely to be in a week or two's time.majority fail would mean that training would increase.but its better to have it increase now than later.but i'm gonna do my best.just to let u ppl know.the passing mark is actually equivalent to an A for jc ppl.so u guys can imagine how much failure there will be.ha.

sigh.i've been sick for almost two weeks already.been coughing like nobodies' business this two weeks.go for training while i'm still sick.shout while my throat has inflammation.i'm crazy alright.see doc.eat me still no use.wonder when i'll recover sia.lucky no fever.if not really no nd go school le.sigh i passed the cold to dad and mum lor.mum recover le.dad still sick.i feel bad about it.sianz.

back to school stuffs.works piling up.test are coming.datasheets to complete.whoever says poly is relax.that person is so wrong.the week after is e-learning week.no nd for us to go school.but we'll have to listen to recorded lecture's at home.boring.ha.think i'll be slacking for most of the week lor.but will have to push myself to study.cause immediately after e-learning week is quiz week.quiz will be dump at me every class of the day.so gonna die.sianz.

hmmm.lets talk bout today.first thing in the morning we had presentation session for ideas.was long.funny also.ha.after the session went peek at the lecturer's scoresheet.one of them gave me 17/20.the other 15.5/20.that totals to 32.5/40.thats an A.haha.unexpected one also.lol.

now i ndta go slp and at the same time try not to die coughing

think i'll end here.i'll try to update regularly if possible.till then.ciao.

2007-03-28T19:49:00.000+08:00

its weird.i've been getting more and more tired in the day.i've got no clue what is wrong with me.sigh.maybe its just me.its beginning to feel empty inside again.dunno whats the reason.a thought suddenly came to me.i was thinking how nice it would be to actually forget everything in the past.and start things afresh with a new identity a new life.what childish thoughts those are.ha.

that day of the year is coming again liao.somehow i really dread it.some people look forward to that day.but me i loathe it.or rather i dun give a shit about it.cause it has always been a normal day to me every time.so heck that.

the task of organizing a class chalet was just shove to me at the start of the week.i dun really have a prob with it.just like so little ppl lor.though having a lot of ppl doesn't mean it'll be more fun.so guess we'll just stick to that.

geez.really got no clue what i wan now.i can't seem to figure anything at all.maybe being like that is better for me i guess.if not things might just turn out bad like it always do.zz.damn i nd a sign.i nd a point of view.i nd a clue to lead me on.its sucks being like this.sigh

2007-03-19T23:05:00.000+08:00

today is a boring day.nothing much to say about today

however there is one thing i need some people to know
the thing is in the past when i care for people,they tend to misunderstand things.so now i'm trying not to care so much.so if i'm cold towards u doesn't mean i hate u or anything.its just i'm afraid things will turn out bad thats all.

2007-03-17T21:29:00.000+08:00

i'm bored.sigh.jc ppl gonna start school on mon liao.sianz.no one to go pooling with on weekdays liao.sianzzzz...

2007-03-04T23:40:00.001+08:00

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

i'm beat

2007-02-23T21:27:00.000+08:00

today woke up early in the morning.followed my dad out.hitch a ride to kallang gym.reach there 7.start working out.8.15 james arrived.he slack while i continue training.9.05 leon arrived.wow.nvr late one sia.lol.finish everything at 11.15.makan at kfc.sigh.wun conflicts ever stop occurring.i'm tired of it liao lor.finish lunch went katong play pool.think i'm helping them too much liao.keep potting the black ball for them.i'm real kind sia.hmmm.they are threatening to slice me up.lol.reason being cause i'm good at slicing.i good meh??.ave only lor.exaggerate.expenditure so far.100 in 3 days.my dad is definitely gonna kill me soon.sigh.

tml gonna be recuperating at home liao.my muscles are already starting to ache lor.tml is gonna be definitely be worse.sianz.sun got soccer.doubt i'll be very active lor.zz.then after that got 'class' outing.thats all for now i guess

hmmm.some ppl are pathetic lor.their taste are like kuku.their eyes dunno whether is blind or what lor.dumb.lousy.got no right to live.these ppl live only to die.shit faces.thumbs down.

u're so pathetic.judging u is a waste of my time

dilemma

2007-02-22T22:55:00.000+08:00

when i was young.i was told that i wouldn't need emotions.cause in my life emotions aren't needed.they say i wouldn't need friends cause there is no such things as friends.sometimes their words do seem to be true.sometimes they don't.seeing how so many of my friendships turn out.it is hard not to believe their words.they are right.the group of us are destined to be like that.to us friendship is just a ten letter word.is there a chance that someone can change my opinion regarding these things?.seems like only time will tell

boring

2007-02-22T10:53:00.000+08:00

seriously my life is so boring i got nothing to blog bout.
cny was totally boring.diff from the past.shou ru not much also.ytd already used 50 from the money liao..now left about 250.sianz.

got a new blogskin.i like it.but still think it is not that 'deathlike'.the designer missed out the death part lor..but nvm.next time then request another one since the designer is so free.shall give her things to do.

later have to go collect phone for my dad.then go gym.when get home prob go play bball.i spend the 50 on a new bball.ytd my dad was saying i really not thrifty..50 dollar one bball still heng xin buy.lol..ha

i've taken the job of helping someone blog.but zz job now pay.so still nd find a real job.if not no money spend liao..sianz..i too lazy find job lor.ha.if my dad hears this he is bound to nag at me de.ha.sianz.

sun got soccer plus class outing for a fren who has returned.got a kid saying he not going.say he no longer part of the class.weird shit.

posting will be out next next tues.chances will be biotechnology le.jc dreams are dashed.but doesn't seem to matter to me anymore.biotechnology=>genetics.woooo.specialist.then i'll be the crazy guy who will be playing with genes.use clones to experiment genetic engineering.ha.i'm ambitious ha.but being ambitious is good in some ways lor.ha.wooo.

i've adopted a new name:Lawliet.some girl keep pronouncing it as lola.no link lor.psycho one her.ha.toot.wahahaha.

The only dependable thing about the future is uncertainty.

End

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2007-01-17T00:39:00.000+08:00

if things were the way it was meant to be.
only you by my side,then will my life shine.
those things you said meant so much to me.
words alone can't express how i feel.
you were there whenever i am down.
said things that never came from my heart.
were you really gonna say goodbye.
true to my feelings is what i want to do.
rather I wish to tell the truth.
than to lie to you.
just hope things will forever be the same.
a moment with you is what I wish for.
joke played by fate really hurts.

Each Word you said holds a deep meaning in my heart.
At The Beginning everything seems so blur.
Of Each Line i wrote comes a deeper meaning within.
Forms A Message i wanna tell.
I Have hope for you to understand.
For You I'll do anything

unsure feelings

2007-01-13T14:30:00.000+08:00

unsure of how i feel now..its kinda dumb..why is all this happening to me..personally i think it not worth risking a friendship just cause of this feelings..i dunno the outcome..or rather i already know..so guess i shouldn't pursue..but should i at least let her know..but telling her..that alone can jeopardize everything..maybe i should just give her my blessings with the person she likes..

i dunno..i'm in dilemma..for now i'll just keep things to myself

tiring day

2007-01-02T20:38:00.000+08:00

wake up early in the morning..to go meet the 'gang' for soccer..went all the way to tampinese there..was fun..real tiring too..play in a court for hockey..big=tiring..was like playing field can..real tired..played defense..center back and left back..fun tired but worth it..after that went tm..suppose to be having lunch..end up all get a drink only..everyone was worn out from the game lor..ha..after that had a long deciding session..then went to tampinese safra to play pool..technically is billiard..we played pool on billiard table..table bigger than normal..so much harder to play lor..got a perfect..3 games 3 win..ha..nd to challenge ivan one day..pretty good..thats why must beat him..and still need get revenge on yq..haiz..after everything i'm pennyless.

so tired now lor..zzz..just now called to check about work le..still nd wait for availability..sianz..i'm bored to death already can.

hmmm..guess i've truly forgotten bout things le..will new target appear soon..really wonder..haha

sianzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

from bangkok

2006-12-23T20:29:00.000+08:00

now currently in bangkok thailand..got here last nite at 1a.m local time..the flight stewardess were real pretty..lol

today pretty much shop the whole day at a local wholesale market..bought quite a lot of stuffs..shoe jersey shirt bags..everything is just so cheap..bought so much stuffs but the amount spend is not even worth a 100 sing dollars..haha..though it is fun here..but can't help miss things back in town..miss my comp..miss my frens..gonna be flying back on mon..prob reach back in town round round 7 singapore time if thing goes smoothly..

i'll end here then..will update when i get back in town

ciao

bored to death

2006-12-16T22:54:00.000+08:00

i'm here to blog since i've go nothing to do at all now..haiz the holidays aren't even over yet and i'm already half dead le..dunno how i'm gonna survive through the rest of the holidays..sianz..zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..worse is i've practically left iwth nothing to do liao lor..

next fri flying off liao..sure hope i'm flying off earlier then i'll be less bored..christmas overseas like last year..so sian lor..not saying spending christmas with my family is bored or anything just that pretty much boring lor..then will be back on christmas night..sianz..

before the holidays even began..i kinda had everything sort of planned out if a certain event occurs but sadly it didn't so guess things that aren't mine wun be mine..haha

so yea things aren't going the way i wan but who cares i've got good frens around me so its okay..but sure hope they wun be leaving my life anytime soon

i'm so bored now..anyone who see this pls kindly give me some advice or best can find something for me to do..thanx..

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2006-12-03T16:29:00.000+08:00

u know that i like u..i know that..if u know things wun work out between us then why dun just u just tell me..rather than u trying to avoid me..i rather u tell me the truth than tell a lie..i know things like this can't be force..but it'll take some time for me to fully forget..and u can help me forget by just telling me the truth..so that when i have nothing to hold on to..i can trully forget that i like u

class outing

2006-11-29T23:50:00.000+08:00

today was a real fun day..met up with part of the class at about 1..thought waited till bout 2 like that..then we were off to escape..bought the tix and all the fun began..at first today thought the bad feelings for last week chalet will still linger..but i was wrong..and a good thing i was wrong..if not wun have so much fun today le..not really gonna go into details bout all happenings..cause seriously can only say one thing since it is at escape and that is rides rides and more rides..though didn't try certain rides..but still was fun..most noteable part of the day was trip to haunted house..know what the haunted house wasn't scary at all lor but we all got scared out of our wits..culprit the girls or rather is the scream of the girls..deafening whatsmore is within the confined space..echo back..this is what they call ren xia ren hui xia si ren ba..haha..after escape went to have dinner at white sands..the thai restaurant..no regrets to end the day thats for sure..food was great..and pretty cheap lor..on ave everyone is about 7 only..worth it..though not many can actually handle the spiciness of the food..after eating..play zong ji mi ma in the restaurant..was thrilling and fun..not for the faint-hearted for sure..mix this and that..then loser will drink/eat that as a forfeit..though the end taste isn't that bad..still everything was fun..to sum it up got something happen..haha..not suppose to say..so heck that..ending was rather 'happy' for some ppl..lol..so thats bout everything regarding today's outing..part of the class kinda bonded ba..not sure whether i'm rite or not..maybe i am..was great and fun..no regrets for those who went..regrets for those who didn't

but after everything..now i'm real bored..psycho can't sms le comp also spoil..suay person..fel sms also exceed sian..then i'm technically going to disappear from her life for a while..so can't really talk to her or anything..haiz

i'm being told to forget bout her cause things wun work out between me and her..but can't seem to let go at all lor..sianz..seriously wonder what i outta do now lor..can someone give me answers pls..

haiz..suddenly i'm all out jealous of my frens and my sister lor..things are working out so well for them..its like as if i'm the only one whose life is not on track lor..real depressing..maybe because thats what my life was meant to be ba..maybe its my character..maybe its because of everything about me..haiz..sianz

end....

i obtain strength to protect the ones i love..but what is the use of having this strength when i can't find the one i love

..

2006-11-25T22:13:00.000+08:00

sianz..got this empty feeling inside..wanna give up on things..but can't make myself give up..maybe psycho is rite..i outta give up..but its not that easy lor..sianz

ytd got back from chalet..was fun in a way..but rest all crap out..so not worth mentioning..not gonna whine bout it here or anything..if not some ppl gonna make it sound as if i'm trying to cover up for things..some ppl seriously nd to get things rite before they start opening their big mouth..nothing to say bout these ppl

got home.shower.comp a while.then slept at nine.till this mornign 10 like that then woke up.now still real sian.

this world is seriously fucked up

2006-11-18T13:53:00.000+08:00

THE RULES:BOLD the statements that are true to you.ITALISE the statements that you wish are true.leave the Fibs alone.then; stab five people to do the same test and leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she has been tagged.
i miss somebody right now.
i don't watch tv these days.
i wear glasses or contact lenses.
i love to play video games.pc games
i've tried marijuana.
i have been in a threesome.
i have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
i believe honesty is usually the best policy.
i curse sometimes. very often
i have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
i carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. compass counted??
i'm totally smart.
i've broken someone's bones.crack yes
i'm paranoid sometimes.
i would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, f.o.c and scar-free.
i need money right now.
i love sushi.
i talk really, really fast.
i have long hair.
i have lost money in Las Vegas.
i have at least one sibling.
i have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
i couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
i like the way i look. wouldn't mind looking better
i am usually pessimistic.
i have a lot of mood swings. totally.
i have a hidden talent.sorta.
i'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
i have a lot of friends.
i am currently single.
i have pecked someone of the same sex.
i enjoy talking on the phone.
i practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
i love to shop.
i would rather shop then eat.
i don't hate anyone.
i'm a pretty good dancer.
i'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
i have a cell phone.
i believe in God.prove to me he exists then i will
i watch MTV on a daily basis.
i have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.drink a lot also wun get drunk de
i have rejected someone before.
i have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
i have changed a diaper before.
i've called the cops on a friend before.
i'm not allergic to anything.
i have a lot to learn.
i've been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
i am shy around the opposite sex.
i have tried alcohol before.and like it
i have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
i own the "South Park" movie.
i would die for my best friends.see whether worth dying for or not lor
i think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
i have used my sexuality to advance my career.
i love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is fun because you get candy.
i watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
i am happy at this moment. nah
i'm pissed.
i'm obsessed with guys.
i have more than just my ears pierced.
i walk barefoot wherever i can.
i have jumped off a bridge.
i love sea turtles.
i spend ridiculous money on makeup.
i plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
i'm proficient in a musical instrument.
i've worked at McDonald's restaurant.
i hate office jobs.
i love sci-fi movies.
i think water rules.
i went college out of state.
i like sausages.
i love kisses.
i fall for the worst people.
i adore bright colours.dark is better
i can't live without black eyeliner.
i don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
i usually like covers better than originals.
i can pick up things with my toes.
i can't whistle.
i can move my tongue in waves.
i have ridden/owned a horse.
i still have every journal I've ever written in. dun even write
i can't stick to a diet.
i talk in my sleep.
i try to forget things by drowning them with distractions.
climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
i have jazz in my blood.
i wear a toe ring.
i have a tattoo.
i can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
i am a caffeine junkie.
i cosplay/know what cosplaying is.
i have been to over 15 conventions.
i will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
i'm an artist.
i only clean my room when necessary. just did
i like a person of the same sex.never

...

2006-11-08T20:51:00.000+08:00

hmmm..three days has passed le..12 more days till end of O's..then after taht if fun fun fun..hahaha..surprisingly all the papers i've had were pretty easy lor..hope i can do well..then go tj..wish wish wish

now i'm actually suppose to study for geog de lor..but i want to msg instead..but thing is she is now studying for geog too..hmmm..maybe wait till later then msg ba..geezz..so bored..really hope things will be over soon..after O's will be jog jog jog..then gym gym gym..bball bball bball..haha

i just realised that my feelings for her has grown a lot lor..first thing i thought of today is whether she is feeling better or not..den dan..sick le still dun wan take care..mei jiu le..but still wo yi zhi xiang jiu ta..it seems caring for her is becoming a part of me lor..its hard not to..

wo zhi xiang rang ta zhi dao..wu lun fa shen shen me shi..wo ye yi ding hui zai ni shen pang de..ji shi ni bu zai li cai wo..wo hai shi hui zai yi pang mo mo de shou hou zhe ni..bu hui rang ni shou shang hai de..wo bing bu yao qiu yao yu ni zai yi qi..ying wei ai yi ge ren bing bu xu yu ta zai yi qi..rang ni ai de ren de dao ta suo yao de xin fu cai shi zhen ai..zhen ai bu yi ding yao yong you dui fang..zhi yao ni kuai le wo ye kuai le

i wish for a pair of wings..so that i can always be there above u..be there when u nd me

drained

2006-11-01T21:46:00.000+08:00

today went study early in the morning..end up dun back and forth around ubi for how many times lor..and who is the culprit..TLJ aka TU..pro..tell him is bugis he go pp..then when i go pp find them..he suddenly tell me wan go bugis..pro guy rite..bugger..lucky i got pass.if not i seriously will kill him..end up study at pp..from 10 to 5 plus just now..got do work la but seriously not that productive lor..study with him and leon we will always end up talking..tml go study cannot go with them liao..if not will end up like today

hmmm..someone finally saw the gift i left at her table..lol..be honoured hor..hen sao do that for ppl de..must cherish..lol

last nite my mei dao me whole nite..dunno what happen..haiz..why u always bothered by things de..cannot like that la..got things dun come tell me..then i be ur kor also no use liao lor

hmmm..i'm now real bored and drained..so tired..haiz..but ao two more weeks like that can le..then i'm free..then will come another situation..haiz..so much stuffs to handle..whats more i dun have much time lor..zzz

wonder if things will work out the way i want it to..sure hope it does..but why does it seem to be another ploy set up by fate..another ploy to trick me again..haiz

will this dream live out as its being scripted..or will things turn out wrong once again..its up to fate to decide now

bored

2006-10-30T17:29:00.000+08:00

so sianz..study study and more study..but actually ah i've spent quite a bit of time slacking too..lol..

shall go all the way back to last wed..went mac study with fren..and guess what..i got pungseh halfway through..hmmm..can't blame la..some guy more impt than ur kor rite..k lor..win le..haha

thurs went study at bugis library with qt and tecky..k did a lot of stuffs that day..but felt 100% drained after everything..oh yea a reminder for all..dun go to lai lai restaurant..they'll rip u off de

fri slack at home..slack slack slack..did some work..but continue to slack..lol

sat went school in the morning for eng..after that suppose to go study..but no one to go with..somemore still got someone dun reply msg..left me hanging..win liao lor u..outta know who u are..then went home study a bit..then stuck to comp for quite a long time..then TLJ/TU wanted to come get my cheng yu bk from me..then say 2 plus coming..so i wait..then tell me 4 plus coming..fine wait somemore..finally tell me 5 plus then come..k lor win liao u..delay 3 times in total..bugger..had to go out late thanx to u..

sun was bored..at home do work..comp..pretty much same routine each day..tired sia..but gonna be over in like two and a half week times..so shall endure till then

today..hmmm..chinese O's..can't say its hard..not that easy either..so ok la..i'm determine to get A1 this time round..if not i'm seriously fucked up liao..then now home..yet to start studying..so bored..nd to talk to ppl but everyone either sms exceed liao or can't come online cause their mama dun allow..zzz..someone save me..lols

tml gonna study hard liao..must chiong like nobody's business..must get out of the house to study..then i'll be more productive..but nd find ppl go..wonder who will be available

quote of the day: if a man is stripped off his dreams,then how can he live on?what was the point in living?-takeuchi sora(air gear episode 14)

will i get a chance to be with you..be with you under a star filled night..to view the meteor shower you always wanted to view

i wonder how everything will turn out in the end..will we still remain frens after i tell u things..will you ignore me for the rest of your life..or will things turn out for the better..only time will tell

if i know what love is,it is because of you

dilemma

2006-10-07T21:40:00.000+08:00

haiz..its been quite a while since i last became so troubled..i know its not the time to think bout this kind of stuffs..but can't help it leh..haiz..and if tell her i risk losing the friendship between us..what to do..haiz..really nd help to concentrate..can someone motivate me to study..if i dun then i can't make it anywhere le..really nd help now..but the person who i wan to help me wun be there de..haiz..theres a limit to being good frens ba..i guess..haiz..someone kill me pls..haze is killing me..stupid time for it to come..and why can't a rain pour in time to relief us of this misery sia..man this really sux..next week so many ppl bday..nd money buy present..can someone lent me atm..lol..haiz..guess nd get advance for the week liao..

TIRED

2006-10-05T20:44:00.000+08:00

btw..poems dun all concern me..feedbacks are welcomed..enjoy=)

works created during boring truncated

2006-10-05T19:00:00.000+08:00

Time Flies

With each passing day
With each passing month
All i had starts to fly to the horizon
Flying through the passage of time
Never to turn back again

Cry

Crying alone in this endless night
With no more light to guide me on
Down a path of immense darkness
From a past of infinite light
Wandering down these empty streets
With tears streaming down my cheeks

Night

Lost the light that used to shine
Now a night that never ends
In this darkness
I see no path to walk on now
All this darkness bring forth loneliness
Loneliness that accompanies me through this night

Loneliness

Befriend by loneliness in this world filled with friendship
One wrong move kills all that I used to have
Lost it all for this dumb loneliness
That lives on through infinity into time

Chances

Shown signs so vivid,
only a dumb fool would miss
But what did i do?
Squander them all.
Took no initiative,
showed no interest.
Deep down, its her that matters.
Wasted the chance,
somebody took it.
Then after,we meet
it can be seen in our eyes.
Regrets fills my life,
sadness hers,
but none of these matter anymore

Confused

Unable to sort out this feelings of mine
Caught between things that were never meant to be
Want to let these feelings out
But afraid things will never be the same.
The fear to lose her is the one thing confusing me.

Untitled #1

In this night I see a light
a light so bright it leads me through
all my pain all my sorrow
cleansed away by this light
This light leaves, I stumble back into darkness
living in sorrow
Fearing that i'll be alone once again

Untitled #2

Fear of losing her is what fills me
Without her this life will never be complete
All this feelings All this thoughts
tells me that she is the one for me
But everything keeps telling me that being with her is not a possibility.
All this things will probably never belong to me.

boring life..i'm still troubled

2006-10-05T18:25:00.000+08:00

trucated..seriously is boring..paper paper paper paper..haiz think i'll have a phobia for papers soon..so all lessons turn out to be composing sessions..last few pages of my organiser have been filled with short poems..some are bout my life..some bout reality..and i have a guest writer..haha..shall post in later..

haiz..life i such a bore now..study and more study..nd a break real soon..before i really fall dead

hmmm..got ppl notice i missing from assembly..good or bad?..both i think haha..least i know i not invisible in school..and probably teacher notice..which is real bad..hope wun come after me

k shall post the mastepieces now

confused

2006-10-04T22:01:00.000+08:00

thought i like her..but realise now that i dun..found out who it is..but now wonder whether or not to tell..if i tell i might ruin a frenship cause i know she likes someone..zzz..troubled..haiz

today school is boring like hell..more papers piled onto the table..didn't go assembly..slp in class..during lessons composing poems bout feelings..ah crap..real bored

insanity update:liang jing and i agree to a large extent that leon has lost his mind

should i tell her?

darkness falls..all i see is darkness..no more light to lead me on..hoping to seek the light that i wan..

lonewanderer signing off

beginning of the end

2006-09-21T22:37:00.000+08:00

prelim ends..everything still hasn't changed a single bit..haiz..guess there really is no more correct things to be done..haiz..no clue to whats going on around me anymore..everything is vivid to me..i dunno what i'm suppose to actually do now..guess theres nothing else to do anymore..life sux..tired

walking down a path of no return..through this journey i seek a light..a light that never will appear no more

bearing sorrow for the happiness of someone

2006-08-30T23:52:00.000+08:00

it seems that me being part of a person life is causing misery for that person..then all i can do now is be out of it..i'll just step out..forget all about a friendship that i cherish..if this will make u happier then thats what i'll do..now i'll only look from afar..making sure that u'll always be fine..but never will be a part of ur life..i'll just care without u ever knowing it..thats my way of keeping this friendship that is gone

being left out

2006-08-20T18:41:00.000+08:00

know what..the worst thing u can do to me is not to kill me but to suddenly leave me out of everything..trust me thats worst then killing me

zzz..why must people always misunderstand the things around them..seriously they shouldn't

zzz

2006-08-17T20:22:00.000+08:00

haiz..so sianz..so bored at home..i needta find a place to study..my room is out for sure cause my comp's is there..not my house either..haiz..so bored..so dead..i need to be saved

intense mugging will be commenced today..two weeks to stuff all the remaining things inside..hmmm..my confidence in doing work is back..knowledge are all flowing back..very good

hmmm..lesson time i should be paying attention but sometimes smsing is so much more fun..provided not affecting the other party..k i'm bored to the extent i said that..

for the past 5 days..i've gotten to someone much better..and how did it began..blog..lol..always the same..hmmm..fun person to talk to..but she always seem so tense..haveta relax k..if nto depression hen can de..hmmm she lacks confidence in almost everything she do..guess i'll have to help her regain it le..she ah always reminding me to study..sometimes can be scary sia..btu good in a way..lol keep up..hehe

k time to mug..end...........

let the stars in this night walk silently by my side.let the world of this day accompany me through my dreams.let you be the one to walk down this life with me

bored week

2006-08-16T20:41:00.000+08:00

we're in the mid of the week currently..lets see..on mon it was announced by ms yap that i'm barred from the next two revision test..hmmm..i've got noting to say about..so lets put that aside for the moment

k prelims is two weeks away..ultimate mugging time has arrived..lol..but seems i'm still in relax mode..zzz..die liao..lol

k..now i still have to endure going for chinese lessons..lets see we got 20 ppl in the class..more than half the class wanna change teacher..so what are we gonna do..hmmm..only time will tell..stay tune

lets see..today career talk on mass comm..suppose to be in working abroad..but apparently we've got change of plans..not official one..self planned instead..then went audi..hmmm..mdm halilah was nice to allow us to change..for that thanx..

hmmm..got nothing to blog liao..time to end

as skies in the nite..with stars shining bright..through the days of endless dreams..will this world only come to be

If a man is stripped of his dreams,then how can he live on???

prelims so close...zzz

2006-08-01T18:49:00.000+08:00

so chinese is gonna be release after national day..sianz..thats the worse..nd to endure chinese longer..haiz

speaking of chinese..today chinese was the best in years..watch movie..i not stupid too..remembered watching the movie on feb 5..at tm..before movie ate at pastamania..pizza..lol..when am i saying all this..
can't really say its the best chinese lesson..dunno why cause of the movie..i remembered stuffs again..stuffs that i've long tried to forget..haiz sianz..

speaking of prelims its 4 weeks away..so fast..haiz..so gonna die..O's are coming soon too..what to do sia..but on the contrary..my old self seems to be coming back..proof?..my physics results..lowest b3..with no studying..lol..hope i can get good results for O's..A1 all the way..hehe..i must sound arrogant..but seriouslly who wouldn't dream of that..nd study..but i still can't seem to concentrate..so dead..

haiz the ppl i normally talk to all stop liao..stef got prelims..fel muggin..haiz sianz..

end...!!!

If a man is stripped of his dreams,then how can he live on? What is the point in living?

gomen to whoever applies

dad bday

2006-07-20T20:16:00.000+08:00

today=sian

school sian..maths sian..dislocated finger =sian

haiz so bored..just back from dinner at thai village shark fin restaurant..today dad's bday..everything normal cept for dinner

haiz..now no more pain killer..panadol no effect..then finger can't use much..so sian

bball can't play properly because of finger..can't play keeper cause of finger..bored to death le..haiz tml got physics test..then now no notes to study sianz..tml friday but nd 4 plus then can go home...sianz..the school is bugger lor..eat away our precious friday afternoon..sat still got golden run..nd wake up early then go there at 7..zzz..go die la school..stupid

zzz..6 weeks to prelim..mugging time..haiz..but no mood lehh..

sian tml still nd buy present..gonna no money soon liao..sianz.

as the sea turns blood red under the setting sun..let the endless waltz begin..

girls stuff= sian..

2006-06-30T22:03:00.000+08:00

From Zanarkand

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2006-06-05T22:27:00.000+08:00

deleted yesterday's post..was force by leon and lj..lol..hmmm for those who read that post..feel free to spread..hehe=p

haiz..today damn sian..school was sian..after school went sgh visit uncle..after taht took train to lj house..reach there they were playing winnign eleven..watch there get trash for 3 games..haha

then went do a-maths hw..damn sian

haiz tml still got school..a-maths first period..double sian..think i'll go gym tml after school..time to build up..

ciao then .. die mosquitoes..let me slp well tonite

under the light of the shining stars..we see the ugliness of this world..revealing the true nature of humans..making this world no better than a living hell

2006-06-03T01:18:00.000+08:00

jay

shan hu hai mv

life

2006-06-02T21:54:00.000+08:00

its been quite a while since i last posted..so shall keep this blog alive by posting today

GCE O'level chinese written papers are over with..hope that i'll be able to score an A1

haiz still haven't get my report book back yet..wonder when will mrs tey call my dad

the hols are here..but it is lessons after lessons day after day..some kind of hols this is..one week of truncated has pass..one more week left..been so tired this few days..but i refuse to rest..guess i'm gonna be out due to fatigue sooner or later..

todays had this stupid weird feeling..my mind has begun to think of crappy stuffs again..single for 1 months plus near 2 months..my feelings are almost all gone..90+ %..still no matter how hard i try..that 10 % or less still wouldn't go away..guess that is something that i'll never forget for a long time..

to be honest today has been a really weird day..theres this feeling thats coming to me..something that i've experience before..but seriously i wonder whether this feeling is coming at the right time or not..haiz i must stay focus towards my current goal..do well for O's..and train up..

sometimes i really hate it when this dumb feelings come..seriously being with a girl isn't all there is to life..life has so much more things for us to discover..so why should be be hinder by something so trivial..

however..what if what if that feeling is true love..wun that mean that u're letting true love slip away..lol..fine i know i'm crapping..

haiz still being confused by my own feelings..what should i do..give in..or stay focus and just ignore it..i really have to make a decision soon..i can't afford to be so indecisive..whatsmore i have not much time left too..man this stinks

sometimes life really stinks..never will life go the way u wan it to..haiz..stinks
thats all for today..wonder when will we the next time i'll update..but still stay tuned.. ciao

trying to find the thing missing in my life..i've search high and low..but all i've found is this emptyness in my life

screwed big time

2006-05-15T21:24:00.000+08:00

realise its been quite a while since i last blog..so today i'm gonna post bout this worse day of life

today got back mid year result..am i happy with my results??..no!!!!!!!!!!!

first thign in the morning got back geog..pass 54/100..but what kind of shit is that lor..pass like fail like that..wth

next was e-maths paper 1..57/85..A2..good??..no cause i'm gonna get screwed big time by paper 2

then got eng..4 section..compo,compre and summary i pass..then situational writing?..got a big fat zero..reason??..Mrs koh refuses to mark my paper..saying i have no intent in doing the paper..it was sloppy..my handwriting is illegible..and my pen ink..among the above reasons..the only one that is true is my handwriting..i know its sucks..but i'm already trying to improve it..i'm sure i can be given some time to accomplish it right. the part bout me having no intent in doing the paper,thats all not true,who says i don't take english seriously,even i know its importance.my pen ink,this time my pen screwed up on me,irregular ink flow,resulting in light and dark writing,worse this happen during my first paper of the day,how the hell was i suppose to get another pen at that point of time lor,considering that both pens i had wanted to go on protest that day,did i have a choice??..no i didn't..and if i were to ask the teachers for help,was i going to receive any?..i doubt..they would just say its my own fault for not checking the pens..and i'll have to live with the consequences. fine it maybe my fault to a certain extence,but saying that i have no intent in doing the paper,ain't you going a bit too overboard,if by any chance you're reading this,i want u to know i have all the intent to do the paper,i take the paper seriously,no part of me wanted that to happen,that i assure u. so u can believe me,or just see me fail my eng because of this small problem that occured.

after getting eng..the whole day was no good at all,everythign was crap,no meaning in life lor,fail eng=fail everythign,if this was the O's,then my future is gone,but i'm sure even the cambridge marker won't be so mean to not mark that paper,i'm sure even they won't wanna see someone fail because of a slight mistake.

then got back science..pass with a B4..good..hell it sux..up to standard?..no..then after everything life went back to normal..i was back to playing basketball through the afternoon..play till 6 plus..then left school..i'm so beat now,whatsmore still need to wry bout how to save my eng,haiz,i've got only one thing i can do now,that is to see mrs koh tml and beg her to mark my script,i hope she would mark my script,i won't mind listening to any lecture she might want to give,all i wan now is to pass my eng,i don't wan to ever fail eng again,not now not ever,i really need my grades,i have no intention of being a worthless person to this society,so i really hope that mrs koh would give me a chance to redeem for this mistake,i hope she would give me a chance by helping me mark my script,pls do help me,i beg you

tml gonna get back a-maths,chinese,e-maths paper 2,that should be all,won't be expecting to get back my history cause mr yusri has gone for reservice,so will only get back my ss, hope that this mid year i would improve,at least pass all my subjects,so that will give me some motivation to work even harder for prelims and the other major examination coming

O' level chinese is exactly two weeks away,man this is it,i've made up my mind,i'm gonna ace my chinese with this attempt,get an A1 then for the rest of the end of the year O's i need only concentrate on only 6 subjects,that way i will be able to have more time for each subject,then doing well would be no proble..i hope..

haiz nd to wake up now,i've decided that from now on i'm gonna work hard and do my best to improve my handwriting so that the eng incident wun ever happen again,i really do hope that mrs koh would help me mark my script,i really hope she would..

road to O's is halfway through,everyone it is time to wake up,lets work hard together and make this batch a recording making batch for the school and leave behind a legacy that would be remembered for many years to come..kampateh everyone..work hard..

..

2006-04-23T18:24:00.000+08:00

everyone in this world..hopes that their life wun ever change..especially when they are leading a happy life..but that thought is something that will cause the downfall of the person..cause in this world if life doesn't change..then it wun be life anymore..if life doesn't change..it is only a fake reality a person lives in.

life like memories are something that are meant to be there..memories remain in ur mind as part of ur life..it is something that wun ever be forgotten..something that will exist in ur mind forever..without this memories life would be nothing but a nutshell with no joy and sorrow..this memories are part of the life we've experienced..something that wun ever be gone..something that will help us grow..when ur memories cease to exist..thats the time ur life will end

this leaves me to question whether theres is a way to forget all those memories that we had..as far as i see it..i doubt..such memories that we've experienced..especially ones with experience with others..is the memory that will exist forever in u

i dunno what had cause me to write all this..all i know is that i have memories that wun ever go away

mye

2006-04-21T21:13:00.000+08:00

haiz..time seems to pass so fast..next week already mye le..haiz..die..must start intensive revision liao..if not sure die one

lets sum up the week..

mon was typical boring day..geog first period ok..the rest of the day kinda suck..dun feel like mentioning a thing

tues was kinda the best day of this week..morning got my wanjing(gd fren) and ben celebarte for me..thanx for the cake u two..then still got vocalist ivan live performance..recess got bashed by the guys..k wasn't that bad la can survive..then after school went carl's junior with the gang..then went joga bonito at westin hotel there..i'm suddenly into soccer again..been so long liao..last time like this was in pri. school..

wed was sian sian and more sian..

thursday ran 2.4..finally pass liao..damn happy..rest of the day not worth mentioning

today..retook standing board jump..i pass..with that should be pass napfa..then bronze or silver liao..then after school james lj winnie came my house..ate crap around play comp watch anime literally fool around..but was fun..

lets see plans for tml:go school in the morning for a-maths..afternoon go support tk band at national stadium..ANONEH PAKUKEH !!!..lol

today so many stuff went through this mind of mine again..so many stuffs reappear..right stuff wrong stuff all appeared..haiz so sian..dunno what to do sia..so sian..wonder when will i truly forget bout everything..=(

this life is something truly slow..till the day feeling flow..is the day true things show..no one ever know..the one thing that i know

each life has only a single existence..your life belong to you alone..not to anyone else..so live this life to the fullest..dun let anyone take control of your life

recalling childhood

2006-04-16T22:29:00.000+08:00

today went look through all my photo albums..brought back so much memories
after looking at the photos..i kinda miss my childhood..in the past i had so many people who dotes on me..my grandma my granpa dad mum aunts..but now everythings beginning to disappear..i now no longer have any grandparents who dotes on me..my relationship with mum and dad are declining..no more aunts..no more person to rely on when i'm down..

seeing all this..i feel so pathetic..from once a boy who had so much in the past..to now a loser with nothing but himself..i didn't cherish those stuffs i had when i still had them..and now when they are gone..i feel sad..i can't blame anyone but myself..feel so useless now

i'm starting to get use to singlehood again..the feelings are almost gone..but no matter what there will still be a part of it left in me

this week was kinda bored cept for thursday..had pft..pass all stations cept standing board jump..sianz..if not then i pass liao..sianz..then afternoon had games carnival.

won the bball finals..play of the day: block shot on de wan by me. one hand alley by andy(game winner)..final score 22-20..

games carnival sum up..2 golds( bball and volleyball) 1 silver(relay) 1 bronze(table tennis)..best results for sec 4s.. 4G rox..

haiz wasted weekend again..accomplish nothign this week..so sian..tml still got chem test..but haven't study..die liao..so many hw still not done..how am i going to survive next week..die liao

mid year is in two weeks time..have i started revising? no..i'm so dead someone pls wake me up before i take the path to hell...lol..i made up my mind..next week i shall start revising..i'm gonna do well for mid year so that i can put my parents mind at ease..haiz.. guess this coming week will just be like any other..oh well..guess theres nothing i can do about it..

whats happening?

2006-03-30T20:33:00.000+08:00

wo men zhi jian dao di fa shen le shen me shi..wo xian zai zhen de bu zhi gai ru he shi hao..qing gei wo yi ge da an hao ma..qing gao shu wo dao di fa shen le shen me shi

my unknown fate

2006-03-21T20:28:00.000+08:00

i've now got no clue what awaits me in this life of mine..all i'm scared now is losing u
never in my life have i been so scared..after what u told me today..i've been thinking alot

thoughts that went through my mind are the worse i've ever thought bout..right this very moment i'm just afraid that this is the end..i've no clue what it is about..all i can do now is hope that everything would be the same after everything is over..

i'm just so scared to find out what awaits me..but no matter what happen..i'm sure ur decisions will be for the best

yet again wandering this lonely world..hoping to find the light that'll lead me..not knowing what my destiny is..just know that things might never ever be the same again

worse day of year

2006-03-20T22:15:00.000+08:00

i dunno what is happening to me today..nothings going my way

everything seems as though life itself is out to get me

i fear that the end is near..but i dun wan this love to ever end

..

2006-03-15T19:42:00.000+08:00

its all my fault to begin with..

today is like a turning point..i dunno what it leads to..but all i hope is that u wun give up on me

the things that happen today is not ur fault..is all mine..dun blame urself..i know i shouldn't have just left when u told me to..at that time..u needed me the most..i was really scared to se u that way..i was afraid..knowing that u were angry at me..i'm jsut so scared..

now i really dunno how we will end up as..wo xian zai zhen de hen pa ni hui fang qi wo..wo zhen de bu zhi dao gai zhe me zuo..i dunno how you're feeling now..all it is now is that theres all feeling in me telling me that u've given up on me le..i dunno whether it is the true or not..all i know is that i dun wan taht to be the truth..dear i really love u so much..i dunno how my life would end up if u were to leave me..i'm scared..i really dunno what to do..i really hope that u'll never give up on me..i'm really sry for what i've done..pls forgive me..dear i love ya..that is the one thing that will never change..dear pls dun give up on me

...

2006-02-22T21:06:00.000+08:00

today no communication between us...whole day can't concentrate fully...but manage to copy all the notes...haiz today felt so scared...didn't know what to do...

today was like back to my loner days again...got things to say...but no one to turn to...

dear i miss ya...today can see u but couldn't talk to u...like my world crumbling down le...tonite i wun slp de...gonna wait till 12 for u...love ya dear<3

dun be too stressed k...i love ya...i'll give u all the time u nd...3 more hours dear...i'll be waiting...love ya <3

18/2

2006-02-18T23:19:00.000+08:00

todays a very special for the both of us...so happy that we finally set things clear le...today so many things happen lor

morning got things on at home so cannot go do early shift flag day...then went sell flag at the last shift..after flag day went out with her...went bugis...she wanted to buy present for her friend but couldn't make up her mind...then went bugis street look around...end up seeing mrs lim...see her we immediately let go of each other's hand...almost got a heart attack...haiz skip all this la

then sent her back...she look worried on the bus...so when reach her house there...got down with her...then went somewhere sit down and talk...finally found out what she's worried about...then i assured her then made her a promise...not going to go into details...then near eight...she about time go home le...then stand under the sky look at the stars...something happened between us...wun go into details...then send her home...

dear...wo hen xiang ni...yao deng dao monday cai neng jian mian le...bu dong ming tian yao zhe me guo...miss ya...love ya so much dear<3

valentine's day

2006-02-14T20:55:00.000+08:00

today is the best day of my life...star thanx

14/02/2006 8.55 p.m

I love you dear <3

....

2006-02-12T21:35:00.000+08:00

thursday was one hell of a day... had a-maths test...confirm flunk de...then retake e-maths test...e-maths is so much easier lor...today had choices...wushu was fun...but the stretching just kinda make my leg numb lol...the other lessons was all very sian..so i shall spare u all from the details...after e-maths test...stayed in school...wait to send someone back...sat in school finish chinese hw...while waiting...then after her cca over...send her back...didn't send her all the way back...send till near bedok mrt only.then i went interchange top up...then saw bryan...took with him 25...got back home round 8.30.

friday had geog-test first thing in the morning...think i'm gonna flunk again...a-maths was ok throughout...physics got back our test...borderline pass...haiz so sian...MT is equal to bored to death...the remedial same thing...haiz...sian 1/2...after that went see the release of o'levels result...after that wait in school till 5plus for her...then send her back...talk on the bus...then on the bus got this uncle who has some kind of skin prob...then after she alighted...some pri. school children boarded...then they gave the uncles weird stares...some of the aunties also sia...this ppl really have no heart...haiz dun wan tok bout it le...

sat was plain boring...stone at home...suppose go class committee training...but pon...then went see doctor get mc... k rest of the day was plain old boring..

today slp till 11 plus then wake up...after that went to parkway with junying...suppose buy v.day pressie de...end up only she buy those for her frens one..then i went back empty handed...then went mos burger makan...then sit there talk...she was *counselling* me...lol...sat there for hour plus...then after that send her home...today we two really very childish lor...wun go into detail bout that...now home stoning le...dunno what to do

tml got comp...gonna miss chem test...then somemore nd go buy v.day pressie tml...have no idea what to buy sia...i die le...haiz that'll be all for today then

week 6

2006-02-08T21:56:00.000+08:00

this week the most stress of the year... got so many test crammed into one week...

monday had geog first thing in the morning...then got called a piece of garbage by yap...haiz first thing in the morning scold me that..totally ruin my mood haiz..but nvm..the rest of the day was not bad...after school got chem lecture...sat at the last few rows...smsing the whole time...then chem end at 4 plus..after that went to play bball a little..then wait till 6 plus then went tkg there...cause acting as bodyguard hu song someone go home...send her home...then went home...got lecture by dad...say i always so late come home..but that day quite early le lor...arrive home at 8 o'clock sharp...but nvm...cause working what...so worth it de...lol

tuesday got comp...so had lesson till 11.45...first thing 3 periods a-maths...almost cannot tahan...i first time bored during mr foo class. lol...then had physics...seriously i wasn't giving paying attention..cause my mind was thinking bout the comp..and also i was smsing...then recess...after that went 1 period chinese...ms. ong really really out to get bball team lor...i never do hw..come find me trouble...dun blame the whole team...i noe she was outta get me...but seriously i wasn't giving a shit...cause i was till smsing...then left at 11.45...wen makan a little...then got a briefing before leaving for AH...then i on the bus smsing...reach AH also still smsing...yang jiang martin they all keep saying"ni kan ta you zai sms liao"...then kinda got mr teh attention...then he a bit fed up cause i keep smsing..then bo chap...but seriously i got chap lor...lol...then we played against tampinese...this game was our best this season...despite the lost...thats bout all

today got training...quite a boring day actually...first two periods ss...got pay a bit attention...got copy all the notes...but still smsing during lesson...then eng...did situational writing..wrote a report...was bored like hell...next geog...yap wen through qn...she say i dreaming when i was paying attention in class...prove her wrong by giving her the correct answers...recess then chinese...ong is bo liao...really sian...slack lor...then smsing in class...she went through zuo ye...something i didn't do...heck that...then e-maths...draw cumulative frequency curve...quite bored so sms in class...not worth mentioning...assembly equal to really really very very the hell pathetic... opera with eng narrator... mdm yeo...pls la...chinese opera with the dialect narrator so much more interesting lor...and pls dun every year get the same ppl come perform...their eng never improve at all from the last time till now...assembly le...then lunch...then eng test...summary writing...actually sit last row de...then force to sit first row...mrs koh pls la...we do things got our own ways and style...i'll try the suggested way...but i'm sure i wun like it...cause its a waste of time...and why must u catch 4g ppl only...so many other ppl also do same way as us...u dun go catch them...come catch us for what...heck that...eng remedial is boring like always...heck that... training...was ok...8 ppl present nia...wth...this is pathetic lor...u all think what we cannot go second round then can slack liao is it...is u all think like that...then can go hell liao u ppl...today was not a good day for me...my shooting,backboard skills all like went on riot or take leave...then play like shit today lor me...miss so many shots...haiz...i so lan...

sian tml got a and e maths test...now nd go mug liao...another time then update again

movie

2006-02-05T18:40:00.000+08:00

today went watch i not stupid too with junying...met at 12 at tm...i was sorta late,should have left the house earlier...then went pastamania eat...shared a 10 inch hawaiian pizza...we were like asking each other to eat more....in the end left a piece never eat...then after that walk around tm cause still quite early...she wanted to buy a bday present for her dad but she didn't know what he like...end up didn't buy anything...after that went watch i not stupid too...lucky i booked the tickets...if not we wun be able to get the tickets

i not stupid too is very touching lor...halfway into the movie people were already crying le...then junying herself also cry...haiz still say dun wan let me see u cry...lol...after the movie went BK get drink then sat down to talk...keep trying to make each other say out who we like...then we were looking each other's phone...stayed there till 5 like that...then she needed to go home cause going out to celebrate her dad's bday...wanted to take cab back so i went and wait with her...when from one stand to another to see it crowded...end up phoning for a cab...wait with her till the cab arrive...then made my way home...lucky my folks were back early if not i would be locked outside the house...

so now i'm back home...just taken my medication...but still not sleepy...must be due to the coffeee...thats all for today

so sry

2006-02-04T20:14:00.000+08:00

last nite i really was emotionally unstable...i said things that i shouldn't have said...sry i've said all that...hope u'll forgive me...i sry i made u cry...i really am...i wan u to know that u too mean a lot to me...u're always the one cheering me up when i'm down...u always try to do ur best to make me slp...i'm grateful for what u have done for me...as u said forget bout last nite...so i shouldn't tok bout me anymore...but i'm going to say sry one more time for making u worry bout me and making u cry...i'm sorry...

thanx for being by my side when i'm down...thanx for helping me think straight again...thank u for everything

school=sian

2006-02-03T20:55:00.000+08:00

today woke up in the morning...want go school that time...look for key cannot find...look for badge cannot find...wan find pe shorts also cannot find..really sway sia...

today go school...day was boring as usual...human geog is really boring...a-maths was ok...physics quite slack...pe ran 4 rounds...9 minutes plus...wth sia nd improve more...then recess time found out om confiscate our school bball...wth sia...school confiscate school property...how often does that happen... worst is early in the morning kts have to was out to get me..indirectly...wth lor...play bball got wrong meh...its my freedom lor...yesterday still say what wanna ban me from playing the comp...wths with that...u've got no right lor,i didn't do anything wrong...go to hell la u...dun think u vp then u own the school lor...u really ruin my day lor...i'm sure the om confiscating the bball also ur doing...go hell la u

today had training...suppose to train in school starting at 2.30.but whole team laze around till 3.30 still haven't start training...then mrs yeo came down to check on us...can tell she very disappointed...sry cher...then change of plan go kcc train...then when we about leaving school our coach came...the whole team panic sia...went up the staircase there to hide...then the coach stand there tok prevent us from going out of school...then we camp there at staircase wait for him go to the court...then he suddenly wok towards the staircase there...whole team stunned sia...then he ask ur relax...then we realise he really heck about us le...so then we finally head towards kcc...then today train mostly on offense tactic...i vouched ah that uncle hock teach so much better than coach lor...then the training end at 7 plus like that...then now home liao...and i'm a bit sick...haiz so sian sia...what a sway day sia

yay i found my key...lucky sia...if not my folks sure gonna scream the hell out of me...shall end here today...

2006-02-02T20:56:00.000+08:00

some ppl say that have a built in alarm clock in them to wake them up...but did u know theres another type of clock that exists. this clock everyday without fail will attempt to ask me to go slp...by the way slping is something i hate(thats if u dun know)...this clock very smart de lor...make me slp by telling me that if i dun slp...then the person also wun slp...this like so not fair lor...then somemore the person got long day ahead the next day...then still wanna do this...haiz haiz...k the person made me slp...but in the end i get bad dreams...this can't blame u cause u can't control also...but i'm grateful...with this person's help i learn to face life's prob...and also *help* me slp...so i'm gonna say thanx to u here...now i can face my probs thanx to u le THANK YOU!!:)

last day of cny

2006-01-31T21:32:00.000+08:00

haiz so sian,last nite doze off somewhere after midnite. bish...doze off...in the end get bad dream...haiz so sian...today stone at home...wake up 7 plus...use comp till now...haiz

sian put on back the weight i loss...haiz nvm...will train till i lose till i reach my ideal weight. tml got training,then before that got eng remedial,with the tkk. so sian...all hw not done...gonna die tml

thursday...second match...vs loyang sec...geez today really so sian

today
rewatch dn angel episode 17 and 18,so many times...then take screenshots of some parts...help someone make blogskin

if u reading this,remembered what i said just now...if wan someone to tok to...i'm all ears...dun worry so much le...everything will turn fine...k...must slp early tonite hor u...

haiz end.................................

chinese new year

2006-01-30T22:03:00.000+08:00

1st day of cny
-went temple pray,then went 8 uncle's house,after tat went dad's friend house,then bloody hell got a bitch call and ask me pay money,go to hell la,first day of cny ruin my mood,heck that.then in the afternoon played blackjack earn quite a lot,now my bills paid le.
today
-chao ji boring.early morning go temple again,this time diff one,after that came home,wanted to slp but no mood liao. sat in front of the comp till now. then afternoon ah zhu auntie came,tok tok,then 4 plus like that she left. then sat in front of comp again,haiz so sian today. then just now receive sms,inform me tonight got stars,then immediately look out window,manage to see,but the stars like all fading away le.haiz now stoning in front of comp,thinking whether u should go out later not,haiz so sian today

cny

2006-01-28T21:32:00.000+08:00

will be the first year celebrating chinese new year without her,still can't believe that she is gone,though i used to hate her,she still doted on me the most.i regret not respecting her,i'm sorry.

trainings..........

2006-01-26T22:14:00.000+08:00

mon till thurs,every day training. never got home before 8 this few days,but i'm sure all the hard work will pay off. lets sum up the week.

mon had physics test then chem tutorial,after tat rush to kcc for training. train under uncle hock,was a great experience,finally i can do a jump shot from mid range that go in. then train half way one manjusri guy came and boast saying they trash saint pats, but heck them,we'll go into round two end win against them.

tues had geog test, then got back plate tectonics test,got distinction,finally.but river and weathering test is a goner le,so will heck that. after that got training,uncle hock came our school. train on offense tactics. then finish training,still stay back train,then got home at 8.30

wed coach came,but left early,he didn't even bother to train the b'boys,wth lor,so kind of coach he is,slack till like this. after that we train ourselves,then i training to change my shooting style and backboard skills. we were the last to leave school again,got home at 8.30 again,to an empty house.then shower,ate instant mash potatoes and some biscuits.then online a while,then drop dead at 10,actually wanted to do chinese zuo wen,but heck. then weird is,woke up every two hours,something must be wrong with me

today training was more intense.uncle hock came with the kembangan team. train 5v5 full court.didn't score at all.really no up to it as a guard,wonder what position i should play. vernon really craze sia,he really train till like shaq liao,just that he can't dunk yet. wanna be like him sia,dominating center. then after training went tkg there take bus,haiz this few days keep drinking h20,addict liao. haiz,so bored now,tml still got school,lucky no training,finally can rest,then tml nd go cut hair,hair so long sia,wan style also cannot.

end here, try blog tml

long week

2006-01-21T22:06:00.000+08:00

gonna blog ,cause someone complaining my blog is dead.

had training for three consecutive days,mon to wed.

mon and tues train on our own,mon only 6 people came,train what shit lor,then do physical then after that an hour suppose do strategy,but cause only six ppl present,so didn't do much at all. haiz curse those that didn't come for training.

tues more people present,but still didn't reach 10.training that time that bloody wang chao still give attitude,then delay our time somemore.mon never come training,still dare complain bout almost everything,from training programme to strategy. haiz he really damn bastard. heck bout him liao.

wed got training,before that had eng oral training,then remedial. that teo really wasting our time with the remedial sia. eng oral that time shuhuan extra come in early,then in the end wasted her time there completely. oral training that time,was chatting with her via sms almost the whole period.then remedial time,junying reply after her lit remedial which was just next door. then by the time finish remedial,coach already there liao,teaching the sec 1s. then change to jersey liao straight away warm up,ran 10 rounds tech blog. then after that did some free throws. next coach make us train his tactic half the team all sian sian when he teach,no one was giving a care bout what he said lor,then after training,sat down as a team to discuss about what to do about friday's match. then we kinda practiced how to overcome full court press. mr bok taught us a technique,which was very usefull in overcoming the press,after that left school,end up being the last to leave school.

thursday was off day,had a-maths after school, after that went canteen eat with andy and james,then tok tok,andy mum came fetch him.then james and i still sit there tok. then my dad came fetch me,also shun bian drop james at eunos mrt. then went home,shower makan liao,then slp.

friday,yesterday,had our first match of the season against chung cheng high.left class at 10.10.
after that had lunch,then wait for bus,drank the red bull,then went do some shots.then depart for anglican high. then junying sent an sms of encouragement during recess,thanx,really appreciate it. then got on bus liao still smsing,on bus discuss a bit about the opponent weakness. reach anglican,had the whole court to us,did warm up,get did shots. then chung cheng arrive. the match was pure trashing,no lead,no ties,outscored by 40 plus points. played for only less than 5 minutes then get sub by wei lun liao,didn't even get to play as 5 starter. after the match,lecture from the coach,honestly no one was paying any attention to him lor,everyone was depress and he had to kao bei so much. after that went observe tampinese and bedok green match.before the match ended only me martin and mingjiang left.the rest all zhao liao,wheres the teamwork. then after that watch east spring and siglap,was a damn long match, so many timeouts. near the end east spring no.8 got a flagrant foul for scolding vulgarities. after watching went play bball till five plus, then chiong back home cause still nd go victoria concert hall. reach home 6.10,shower then do all the stuffs,left house at 6.30,got on a 63 heading towards aljunied,bloody hell was stuck at ubi till 7,then reach aljunied 7 plus,took 100 but drop at beach road to take taxi,cause getting late liao. took taxi to victoria conert hall,the uncle really very blur sia,shouted the location to him 10 times then he know where to go. then was msing junying,she also rushing there.reach at 7.35,lucky wanjing help me reserve tickets,if not no nd go in le.the concert was great,sat upstairs,had a great view,the ambience of the place was great too. then after concert went with gerald they all go bugis,actually wanted go eat one,but end up buying drink at 7-eleven,then took mrt back with elmo,afiq and the gay,dunno why that gay nd tag along. haiz lucky left with afiq they all,if not i'll end up punching someone. then on the way to bugis,saw wanjing ccy,and adam,they on their way back,took the same train. wanjing almost murdered someone,if we hadn't surrounded her. k left bugis,take train to eunos then take 63 back. then chat on msn till 1 1a.m,went to rest when my dad came and ask me to slp,but still he didn't know that i hadn't slp for a long time.

today had training,woke up 6.30,laze in bed till 7 plus,then wash up,grab a slice of bread then went school.left home at 8 like that. then reach school,only nicholas and yang there only.then training,sky say what today wan train shooting,end up is he tricked us,wan us do physical,first ran ten round bball court,then free throw,all of us miss the shots,so had to do 8 times the shuttle run. after that,ran 12 rounds around tech blog,they made me lead,then failed to complete in 20 minutes,so had to run 5 more rounds. after that,sat together to discuss some things regarding the team. then after that,went eat lunch at katong,then go play lan. came home to an empty house,lucky got bring key,if not i'll be locked out. then shower,eat,then now blogging.

going to jog tml morning,nd build up my stamina,gonna win all the other four matches,gonna make this season the best in years.

....

2006-01-14T18:33:00.000+08:00

today went school for chem,then got training.
started with physical,2 hours,10 rounds,then shuttle run(bball style).,da ban,defense drill,jumpers,free throw,then circuit.
then discuss strategy,and other related stuffs.then went lunch as a team.played lan,then now back home.

bad start of the year

2006-01-09T21:28:00.000+08:00

shall relate back to the first day of school....
went through all the admin stuff,then slack around,then after recess went hall for talk,the worse part begins now,before heading to hall,james andy yang me went toilet to make hair,then after went to hall,late for 10 min,then tan kee hoe,fucking hell not happy with us,kao bei us,then make us pump 50,and stay there. na bei we told him we went toilet,which was the fact,he say we crapping,then use that cane of his point here point there,cb he really got nothing better to do sia.then after that went hear the tok,sat for near 3 hours in the hall,then get up leg numb liao.

next day wed officially start lesson,start of lesson,teacher all tok bout expectations,then not much teaching at all. next worse thing of the week,teo kk is my eng teacher,cheebye sia.kena him,is like being sentenced to death liao,fail eng. honestly speaking,no lies ah,he really really cannot teach,everyday come class go sweep floor,really seems like he likes it a lot. heres a suggestion,since u like sweeping the floor so much,make it ur occupation,quit teaching,so the future generations wun have to suffer under someone like u.k enought bout that.then that day,sway sway kena eng remedial,wtf sia,my eng very bad meh,put me in remedial,go hell la u.whatsmore,only me and ben kena,nabei cb.wth wtf. anyway back to that,that shuhuan sway sway also kena,then remedial that time,she sit there with mouth close,like she dunno what that teo toking like that.lol jk la,no offense ah,if u happen to read this.k then after remedial went for training.k fine i got into the team,but because of someone who tok to coach,fine,i admit,i really suck k,i dun give a shit what u ppl think bout me,like it or not,i got my own ways of leading this life of mine. last but not least, kena ms. ong again,sian liao,gonna have lots of qn directed at me again, but then the class kinda split up sia. np sit one corner,band one corner,heck la,just hope will improve can liao.

thursday,was kinda ok for the week,except for the eng lessons,it seriously ruin the day.

friday,first period geog,then whole class kena kao bei by yap,k started the day bad,never did actually recovered. then a-maths,forgot to mention,mr victor foo our teacher,not a bad cher actually,but still prefer ms. wang as our teacher,but guess i'm asking for the impossible.then rest of the day not that bad,then afternoon got training,school end at 12 plus,then had to wait till 4 for training to start.training that time,i realised one thing,my endurance improve sia,finally my work paid off,gonna train more harder now,gonna make my last season the best.i vowed that i'm gonna improve,so i can get into the first five line-up.

sat was cca recruitment,k was boring,really was. not bad this year,managed to get 25 names of ppl who are interested.

sun when to my cousin flix wedding,at jurong country club. he and his wife so compatible sia,envy them sia. that makes me wonder,will i be as lucky as him??? heck that for now,O's more important,then when in JC private pilot license,here i come. last nite,drink whiskey and martell,amost go drunk sia,lucky i still can hold the liquor. to shuhuan and siewmin:come stop me from drinking if u can.

then today monday,first thing in the morning,mrs tey pms,woman,guys will never be able to understand them. then today got teo class,ruin the day totally. then today got science remedial,first physics practical,the chem theory lesson. then after that,wok to parkway,popular and then go library.then got home almost eight liao.

haiz sian sia, see people suffer again,really hope can brighten their days,so they wun go down the same path i did.

sian sia,feel like i'm about to breakdown liao,O's coming,and bball competition next week,but still i nd to overcome everything,can't help someone from despair,when i'm in a worst state than them. gonna train and train,gonna become better at bball,gonna play a gd season,got leave behind a legacy,gonna get good results for O's,gonna help all in despair,gonna live a good life.

bye to '05,hi to '06

2006-01-01T01:38:00.000+08:00

lol,last minute lex ask me go countdown at downtown east.end up nd chiong taxi to eunos,then when i went to the platform,he tell me go eat at eunos there,fell like strangling him sia. then he finish eating,when tampinese,play lan. then when white sand wait for the gals.they really took their time sia. then jian an and his bro also there.then after waiting like hell,they gals decided to go downtown east. took 354 there. reach there 10 plus,then wait for kenneth they all,they came pass the ws to qinyu then go orchard countdown pang seh us. then went arcade see here see there,then the gals go sit one corner outside,play the gals only play game. then lex and i it there stone.then cannot tahan liao went arcade.lex damn lousy lor,play those game lose me,last match lose 5-0 somemore, loser. then finish playing then went queue to get in. get in was performance by 'britney'. when she finish then countdown. countdown liao,then party a while, then saw lyndon xiao wei they all.then suddenly one of jian an friend,ivan,headache,then they left to find place for him to rest.left with lex,then gal still there partying. share taxi with lex back,then now blogging.

2005 was not the best,2006 hope it will the the greatest

O's this year. hope will get under 10 points
bball B'division east zone competition,TK 8, hope i can get into the starting line-up.also hope the team will advance to the top fours,or better,then go into nationals.
hope to find whoever it is that is the one for me.
hope that 2006 would be the greatest year till then.

till then adios

payday delayed/schools starting again

2005-12-28T13:44:00.000+08:00

sian today was supposed to be my payday,but for some reason the big boss has to delay it to next friday.worse of all i'm supposed to buy my new bball shoe this week,now how am i suppose to find the cash for it.whats more i got a friendly match next week,how the hell am i suppose to find time to go collect my pay. schools starting next tuesday,i'm done none of the homework,did nothing at all this holiday cept for playing and going for training. man i'm in trouble next week.

nice i got into Ag 2,mdm. goh say i will get into Ag1 ,she bluff me,but nvm, Ag 1 or 2 doesn't matter,wat matter is who the teacher is,any teacher will do cept for hock kian and ah ber. all other teacher are fine. hope wun kena this two teacher.

redownloading all the gundam series from zeta onwards.hope will finish downloading by tml,then gundam marathon till the holiday ends,nice. watch destiny plus,was exactly like episode 50,but with more detail about the final battle,and also athrun in messiah with kira. but the chosen kinda sux,why must athrun be together with meyrin,cagalli is so much cuter and more chio lor,this screwed up the epilogue. then in the end,cagalli became head of orb,lacus became head of zaft supreme council.

eternal has been set into production. date of release still unknown,updates from wikipedia. official update from bandai not release yet,expecting it to be announce in jan.

anime

2005-12-19T21:13:00.000+08:00

finish watching d.n. angel for the second time, episode 24 really damn touching sia,but 17 and 18 still the best. harada riku is so cute sia.risa and hiwatari,they sort of had a connection in the last episode,a sequel should be made,so their relationship can further what.
finish tusbasa chronicles season1,can't wait for season two,although clamp really need to improvise a bit,by creating more characters,instead of using syaoran and sakura from cardcaptor.

work

2005-12-19T20:59:00.000+08:00

today started work,early morning go out,look for teo industrial building,took damn long to find it. reach there,only two santa and one coordinator there.then wait for the other coordinator and santa to arrive,then briefing by angeline,brief till so long,almost late for first stop for the day,rush rush,chiong taxi to bedok dbs there,start work. my coordinator melvin,ex-tksian,graduated in 1999,that time i still pri. sch. then go dbs bank there,hohoho,shake hands give away candy,till 1.15,then take taxi to parkway,sway thing happen when reach parkway,dun intend to explain in detail. then wait till 2 then start work at pp dbs,then 2.45 knock off,then went back office,wait for the others come back,then feedback.then went home,lucky my dad fetch,it not really damn sian,carry the santa stuff and walk home.
tml still got work,first stop tampinese branch 12.30-1.15,then eunos branch 2-2.45,then can knock off liao,best thing is last stop is eunos,go home so convenient.
tml change coordinator liao,cause melvin do one day nia,then dunno who the coordinator is,then angeline still haven't msg me,she damn incompetent sia.then forgot bring back cushion,now how am i suppose to make my santa belly tml,sian...

day at city harvest church

2005-12-11T15:49:00.000+08:00

yesterday went CHC,cause james ask me go,then there met his cell group,then attended the service,the first one i've attended,was a great experience,saw eunice and elise,but doubt they remember me.got to know a lot of ppl yesterday,had a great time,yesterday's service changed me in a way,my thoughts became clearer,i'm beginning to accept life again. niway james thanx for asking me to go,and thanx to his cell group for being so friendly,thanx for the wonderful time.

friendly match with tian yu team

2005-12-09T23:20:00.000+08:00

today had the first friendly for the B'boys team,was out for the first half due to a sprained ankle sustained during the first quarter. at the end of half time,the score was tied at 16 a piece.sub nicholas in the third quarter,fired off at 6-0 run,all 6 points scored by urs truly.at end of third quarter led the game 30-20.in the final quarter,tian yu fired off a 11-0 run,sinking 3 three pointers at the start of the game, leading 30-31 with 3 minutes left,played defensive,scored the last two points for the team,making it 32-31.with less than a minute left in the game,tian yu scored,taking the lead 32-33,then came the final whistle. this indeed was a great game,though we lost,but it was a great experience for us while we take our first step into the 2006 east zone tournament.finished the game with 8 points,tied with yang the place for top scorer.

next friendly december 19(date prior to change),outram sec.

after the game when lan,played two games of dota,kena owned like siao.

sian sia now ankle still pain,hope i can recover by december 19

most boring day of the year

2005-12-03T20:56:00.000+08:00

can't believe what i did today,wake up early in the morning,with a very unclear mind
my mind is still filled with so much thoughts,can't think clearly at all today
stone in front of this comp the whole day,still been trying to forget bout her,been trying so hard for this past few days,but still couldn't.
should have known it wun be easy to forget her just by saying so,there is really too much affection i have over her,that probably is the reason why.but still i'll try my best to forget her,i nd to go back to normal soon,can't possibly waste the remaining of my holidays dwelling over such things.
today is my grandma's 100th day death anniversary,can't believe its been three months since she left.

crappy day

2005-12-02T21:32:00.000+08:00

last nite slept at 12 wake up at 3.30
what i found out last nite really gave me a hell of a time,couldn't slpt probably because of that
heck with it liao la,haiz,yesterday went band concert,was good,better than last year.

today had training,after that went to eat at pp with yang mj and martin.today got new phone,6610i,and phone plan,athough the plan was not the one i wanted. got back home online till now.
been trying to forget everything,trying to give up,but seeing her come online,i got the urge to tok to her,but refrain myself.
kinda miss the days before i told her about it. but guess the days wun ever return.

to end this i got one thing to say romario if u ever got the chance to come to this blog,i got one thing to say to u, u're a very lucky guy.bro u got my blessings.

interclass basketball

2005-08-25T21:34:00.000+08:00

interclass basketball B' division

results:
3G defeated 3B 21-18
3J defeated 3A 21-8
3H defeated 3C 18-15

3H advance to the finals with victory over 3C

next matches:
3J vs 3G,match to decide the team that is to enter the final
date:2/9/2005
time:2.30 p.m

carefree guy

2005-08-25T11:40:00.000+08:00

to all that knows about it,i dun like her anymore,so dun bug me bout it
to the selected few who know, I DUN LIKE HER ANYMORE.

message end.......

last day

2005-08-18T10:53:00.000+08:00

one more day then back to carefree life, nothing will get in my way

test and more test

2005-08-17T11:08:00.000+08:00

this week common test,two more days then will end,left geog e-maths chinese chem
sian damn long never play basketball liao,losing my touch,sian what to do

sian tml maths and chinese then have study then here blogging while waiting to watch shooting stars

i'm a pathetic loser

2005-08-14T14:23:00.000+08:00

it has been bout three months since i made my confessions
still i have yet to do anything significant
i never had the courage to even tok to her
probably why i'm still not in her league

its pretty hard trying to win someone's heart when u know that she already has someone in her heart
i really wan to know who he is,i wan to beat him in everyway possible,be it academic,attitude,physical,talents.
i will do everything in my abilities to beat him,so as to impress her,so that she will look at me in a different way
i just wanna be with her

be it day
be it night
i stand by a side thinking
thinking of u

with each passing hour
with each passing day
my feelings grow stronger like your infinite beauty
hoping that u would see me in a different light

i wan u to know
that regardless of what u say
my feelings will never change
no matter what happens

before u knew
i had hope that the one in ur heart would be me
but knowing that it wasn't
my life came crashing down
u said that no matter how much i change
ur feelings for him would never be cast on me
till this day i still remembered ur words
but still deep in my heart
i still truly hope that u would have feelings for me
cause in me
i really can't live without u

finding the meaning of my life

2005-08-13T02:47:00.000+08:00

it seems my life currently has no meaning,i've got nothing to live for,the only thing i live for no longer sees me as a friend,from what she says,i can sense that she hates me

everyday in class,i stare into the blank space,thinking whether there is still a reason for my existence,but till this day,i have yet to found out what that is,maybe there really is no reason for me to live on

whenever i look at her in the eyes,she would look another way,no matter how hard i try,it seems to her that i'm a person that does not exist,if time she pass me by,its seems she is regarding as an invisible person,not realizing my existence.

each day i drive myself crazy thinking of u,thinking of u is the only thing i do,the only think i wan,but the one thing i wan is to be with u,thats all i ask for

all i wan is a chance,a chance for u to know,to know that i love u,regardless of what obstacles u face,i'll be there with u,to shelter u from the rain,to take care of u when u're sick,to share ur pain and joy,to comfort u when u're down,so give both of us a chance,a chance to get to know each other more,thats all i ask, just to be with u

the promise lyircs:

I know that lately Things have been so hard and looking out Through your broken heart All you can see is dark And lonely days ahead But remember Jesus said Chorus He knows every star in the sky Every single tear that you cry His love is here faithful and alive I know that this world can be cold In his arms you're never alone That's his promise to you and I When hope had disappeared And you heart aches You might not recognize The touch of grace But on the other side Of every dying dream His love is waiting patiently Chorus With every angel there's a love That never leaves your side His love is deeper than the ocean Or a mountain high You've got to know There's hope in your heart And if you listen with your heart I know you'll hear him say You are my child and I am with you Each and everyday He is the one who knows your soul Chorus That's the promise for you and I

jap drama rocks

2005-08-11T11:10:00.000+08:00

watching jap beauty or the beast throughout the whole night yesterday

really was dazzled by Matsushima Nanako, as Tamiya Makoto

chio ain't she
rating 9/10

great jap drama
rating 8/10

boring day

2005-08-11T11:00:00.000+08:00

sian,tml got school,then piles of hw still not done

then yesterday was national day,only watch part of the parade

then national day eve,the school celebration is a total failure,the performance is pathetic,just a stupid play then keep on singing and singing.

was looking at her from the back that day,although she is close, but to me she seems so far away

then national eve that day went watch 7 swords with qi hao,teck xiang qite and elmo,after that met up with huang hua,wok round going fareast,then go all the way golden mile makan then play pool

new blog

2005-08-07T13:04:00.000+08:00

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